Where did the year go?

A year ago today my mother in law  passed away in her sleep.   Where did the time go? 
My mother in law  moved in with us two years before that. We took care of mom so she didn't have to be alone or live in a nursing home.  I will be honest there were days I wanted to pull my hair out and just run away and cry and say what did I get into. Then there were times she would say something or do something that would make you laugh and say this is why I did it.  It wasn't easy taking of my mother in law she didn't care for children and we had two wolfs running around.  So, they butt heads from time to time and that wasn't easy. But, we got through it. Towards the end mom was going through alzheimer and it was getting hard for all of us. She was seeing things, or losing things.  But, we made it through just would re a sure her all was ok and nothing was in her room.  Mom and I had some long talks she told me alot about her family and why things happen and when.  Some things I told her I would never tell and I will keep that promise to her.  Mom, told me a week before she pass that she talk to God and God told her it was her time he was coming to get her.  Daddy wolf and I laughed at her and Daddy wolf her son always joke with her and said Mom you know only the good die young you will be around along time.  I guess mom knew what she was talking about because week later she was gone. I went to do my nightly checks on mom and she was gone, she went very fast and pain free and peaceful..   
I have had year now and its been a different year,  emotions going all over the place.  Daddy wolf her son has been the same way.  It was his mother and he was the baby of the family so he has had some hard times with it. 
We are now trying to look ahead and get one with the little wolfs before they spring there wings and leave the nest. 
Daddy wolf ask me a few days ago would I do this again, my answer to him was no.  I just don't think I can. If I had help or relief once in awhile maybe that would be a different story but with nothing no. We could never go any where longer then 3 hours as we had to be back to give her medication and things.  You always felt trap.  I am glad I had the two years with mom and she had some time with her son but no I just can't do it. 


Mom, thanks for giving me your wonderful son he is the best. He is a great daddy to the little wolfs and a great hubby to me.   Thanks again  and rest in peace.