Worry!

Are you one of those people that worry about everything?  Well I am and I wish I could change. I try so hard. I am so glad I have a wonderful and very supportive hubby who is there all the time to hug me and tell me not worry. 


I worry about the weather.  Now like I can do anything about it right.  

I worry about my daughters and hope nothing but the best for them.

I worry about my wonderful hubby and his health alot.  He has had two rounds of cancer everytime he gets sick guess what I do worry thinking the worst. 

I worry about people in other country and wish I could do more. 

I don't know why I worry I just remember thats all I ever done. I don't know if its because I had so much in my young life to worry. My father was a drinker and beat my mother alot and that bother me.  I worried every day if he would come home early or come home drunk. 

Then my father pass nothing to do with drinking at  young age. I was 15 it tore me apart.  I loved my father and looked up to him alot and did alot with him.  I remember several talks we had.  I worried after his death what are going to do we are 5 miles in the country my mother don't drive, there is 6 of us under the age of 15 at home yet.  

Then a few months after my father's passing,  sister that I was very close to passed away swimming in the pool that just tore me up. We did everything I mean everything together.  We shared a bedroom and had many talks.   Its was so hard I didn't know if I could go on or not. 

I worried every time some one got sick or did anything would they live or die. 

I just wish I could get over this worry and get on with my life.  So, for 2012 I am going to try and relax more and remember the good times and try so hard not worry about what could happen tomorrow.