I did it this time!

Well this morning got up and got going. Thought its cool out need to work harder to stay warm.

So up I go and get dress. I went outside and who was under my porch but a big buck, doe and baby. Looking at me like please can we stay we are scared there are guns and mean people out there and its cold. Why of course you are more then welcome. I went back inside got water and some food for them.

Then off me and the dogs went up the mountain.  There is alot of snow the higher you get on the mountain. I slipped a couple of times but got back up and got moving. Got to the top, stop to rest and my lower back was hurting so  bad, the pain was going down my leg. 


I sat and thought no way am I calling EMT to come with snowmobiles to get me out of this mountain. I thought about getting on my big hind and sliding down. But, there are tons of rocks and that might be worst so I just kept walking slowly got to the bottom and slowly walked the rest of the way home.

The pain was there every step I took. I thought no way are you going to win. I have to be strong and work you out.  So, I came home put biofreeze and got daddy's wolf back brace and put it on and now resting with ice and heat. 

But, I need to get up and get moving have tons of things that need to be done and it wouldn't get down sitting here in the pitty party chair.  

So, Pain Pain go away.  I have tons of things to do.
I don't need you right now so pain, pain go away.

LOL

I just had a call from a Charity asking me to donate some of my clothes to the starving people throughout the world.

I told them to kiss my ass. Anybody who fits into my clothes isn't starving.

Dang if you do and Dang if you don't!

I was in bed the other laying awake and wondering this.

Why do we teach our children to tell the truth. People don't want to hear it. They only want to hear what they want to hear. You are never suppose to lie to people but if you tell them the truth they hate you and will never talk to you again.   WHY?

I don't get it. We work hard to teach our children to do what is right and when you do it you get that door slammed in your face hard.

WHY? is it better to lie to people and say oh you look so good in that, when really they don't but you know deep down inside if you told them the truth they would be so mad. Why is that why do people ask if they don't want to hear it.

You know I don't get it.  When people put someone on a website and others give there opinion they get up set. Well when you post something you better be ready for good and bad. 

As this is America and we all are in titled to freedom of speech and we all have our opinion on the subject some might like it others wouldn't but thats ok too.

Why do people get so upset then if they know it can happen?

I told Daddy Wolf I wanted to move in the deep woods and be far away from people. I don't get them. I am tired of walking on egg shells and lying to keep friends.  I am who I am. I am human and do have rights to my opinion weather you like it or not and yes I might say something you like and I might say something you don't.  But, remember it doesn't make me all bad. I am just human.

Does it get better?

Does it get any better then this?

Did I waste my life and now its coming back to kick me in the face.

Wow!  can't believe it.   I am so tired of doors being slammed in my face and being told no that I just want to curl up and cry and say enough is enough.

I felt I was doing the right thing at the right time rasing my girls. But, I guess I was wrong.

I feel like I was put in jail for along time and now I am out and they don't want to hire me.

I'm about ready to say ok government you don't want me to work I am trying hard and you are holding everything I did in the pass againist me which isn't bad I don't think just raising the girls. You can just support me then.  I will sit with my feet up, watch soap operas and eat ice cream you got your choice. 

I am doing my best.


When does one give up and say enough is enough.

Time just got away from me!

Sometimes life just keeps moving no matter what you doing or where you at.  It just keeps going.


Been busy with the graduation of our youngest one, then we all have birthdays and then comes Christmas.  I breathe a sign of relief on Jan.1 every year. 

This time of the year is so busy for us. Like I said getting all the birthdays in and the holidays and then this year we add a graduation.  Like we didn't have enough to do.
But, it was special day and we had a wonderful time and so proud of her. She did a wonderful job.

Now what to get them for birthdays and Christmas.  Hmmmm need to get the thinking cap out and do some thinking..

I hope all my blogging friends and readers have a Happy Thanksgiving...

Week - end already!

What a busy week. 

Been busy hitting the doors of every place I think they might hire  me.    Nothing yet. But, I wouldn't give up.  I have my big girl panties on and I am going to keep them on till someone hires me.

It was my DH birthday he had to work but when he came home we went to a really nice place to eat. They gave him a free meal.  The food was great and everyone there was great. I think we found a new place to eat once in awhile. We don't go out to eat much we don't like to eat out at all. Its usually for special things in our life and sometimes not even that.

Been busy picking up a few Christmas gifts every now and then. As the girls get older its harder to buy for them. But, they gave us some good ideas so it shouldn't be to bad this year.
My youngest wasn't giving me any ideas for awhile.
Finally I sent her a e mail and told her if she didn't give me some ideas I was going to buy her  a red dress with a pink bow and black high heels and she had to wear them for a week and go to town every day.  LOL 

She e mail back with some ideas and said wow Mom you didn't have to be so harsh. LOL  Got her attention didn't I. 


Wake up to some wonderful snow outside the other  day so pretty and fresh. The puppies loved rolling in it.  The girls had fun throwing snowballs at each other and even got there dad a couple times.

Well he stays in for another 4 years....

Well the president of the USA stays in another 4 years..

Rather you voted for him or not. We all need to get together and pray for him and our country and hope things start turning around.

I know everyone is not happy to have him in again. But, I look at this way I wouldn't want to walk in his shoes any days.   Its one of the toughest jobs in the world.

You have to know its hard to please everyone all the time and we know he wouldn't be able to do that.

All we can do is pray he takes care of American in the right way.

Pull up those big girl panties!

Wow!  that is what I need to do is pull these big girl panties up tighter and be strong and keep one step ahead of those turkey butts.

Here's a couple of my interviews I have went too the last month:

First one is  from a fast food place.  First of all I really didn't want to work at a fast food place its filled with young ones and all. But, I was strong pulled up my big girl panties and went and here's how it went.

Manager:   Hello welcome to so and so, glad you could come today.

Me:  Thanks

Manager:  Well the job we want you to do is you sweep, keep the main lobby clean and all tables, along with watching all the young kids that are working and make sure they are doing there job and not messing around. OK

Me:  ymmm isn't that what the manager does is watch the employees?

Manager:  yes but sometimes its better if someone else tells the young ones not always the manager.

Me: ymmm that sounds like a glorify babysister and maid. 

Manager:  no not really

Me: What does it pay? 

Manager: $7.25  per hour.  Do you think this sounds like something you would like to do?

Me:  No

Manager: Why? Not we seem to have a hard time filling this opening?

Me:  Well it kind of scares me I am older and they will take me as a tale tail and when I go to my car they could be waiting or my tires could be cut.  Or they will find out will I live.
Has that ever happen?

Manager: In the 2 years we open this position only once.

Me:  Once is a enough thanks.  But, I think I will still look around for awhile. Thank you for your time.

Manager: Your welcome if you change your mind let us know.

Me: OK  back of mind as I am walking out don't think so.



Next job interview:   This one at a Chiropractor Office


Owner and nurse:   Welcome to our office we are glad you could come.

Me: Thank you

Nurse:   Well tell us little bit about you  and your family?  Also what you have done in the passed.

Me: Away I went.

Nurse: Wow you are wonderful just the right kind of person we are looking for.
Do you mind part-time hours?

Me: No that is what I am looking for that will be great.

Nurse: Can you start this day?

Me:  Yes

Nurse:  Ok now the owner would like to talk ok.

Me:  Ok

Owner: Came in.  Hello and welcome

Me: Thank you

Owner:  This is what we are going to have you do.  Lets see if you can do it.

Me:  Ok that sounds wonderful..

Owner: Ok come with me.
So, off we went showed me what to do and ask me to do. I did he was wow thats wonderful.

Me: Thank you

Owner and Nurse:  Ok you did a wonderful job and your personality is great we have one other person to see today and we will get back with you. 

Me: Ok thank you

So, two days later and the phone call come: 

Nurse:  Hello sorry we can't offer you the job we gave it to someone else.  

Me: Oh ok but I have one question can you tell me why?  I been to 22 places and I been turn down at them all. I know its because I haven't worked in the worked force in over 20 years and my age put them both together and that don't look good.

Nurse:  No I don't think that was it.  Your personality is wonderful. Age no don't think so.

Me: So, what was it?

Nurse: I don't know the owners not in and I don't why but its not because of your lack of not working or age.

Me: Ok thanks alot bye.  

After I hung up I said whatever to myself. Right what is the reason you wouldn't hire me. You can't say nothing bad about me. I passed all your test. 

I know you can't say its my age and lack of not working in 20 years..


I was really down and hard on  myself for a day or two after these two interviews. I am so tired of filling out application and being told no sorry we can't help you right now. We will keep your application on fill for 60 days if something comes up we will let you know.

Well I better not hold my breathe to long on that.  No one is going to call.

Thank God for street corners, might have to make one of them my home soon.

That time of the year again!

Just when you are rolling along good its that time of the year again to fall back...

So, don't forget to set the clocks back tonight before you go to bed.....

                                    

 

thought this was cute.